Let's Talk About Anxiety
Anxiety is not a fun topic. It's something that I am currently experiencing intensely and the only way I know how to deal with it is to talk about it.
All my life, I've always said to myself, "oh, I'm just really emotional" or "I'm just a sensitive person", but as I've grown older, I have realized that all this time I've been experiencing anxiety. Yes, I am emotional and sensitive (which aren't bad things BTW), but that's not the reason I feel fear when I think about being apart from my fiancé for three months or why I start to panic when I'm in large groups of people. The reason behind those things is anxiety.
My natural response to anxiety is to curl up in a ball and cry. That's not necessarily a bad thing because it helps to get some tension out, but it shouldn't be the end of my response.
I've been super super anxious about spending three months apart from my fiancé this summer. It has completely taken over my thoughts the last couple of days and I've shed quite a few tears about it. I'm sad that we have to be apart, but I am also experiencing fear. I feel extremely pathetic that it's affecting me so much. I get frustrated with myself when I feel tears coming on because I feel like I'm overreacting. But I know that it's my anxiety taking over my mind and instead of feeling stupid, I need to turn away from myself, my flawed mind, and rely on someone else: God.
As I was experiencing a moment of panic this morning, I came across a post by Proverbs 31 Ministries that hit me right in the heart. Here's what the post said:
"Have you ever walked through something so difficult, so terrifying, that you've caught yourself asking, "Jesus, where are You?" Sometimes when life gets messy, it can feel like our Messiah has gone missing. God's not running from our mess. He's climbing in it to be right there with us. And with His presence comes peace. He wants us to see Him. He wants us to know Him. In the midst of whatever hurts and heartbreaks are disrupting our peace, I pray we will see Him coming. We no longer have to cry out in fear; we can call out in faith. Calm and trusting. Anxious for nothing. Because we know. We know He sees us. We know He's for us. We know He's in control. Yes. The Lord is near. And we are safe."
- Lysa TerKeurst
It was like God was speaking directly to me. He was telling me that I don't need to be anxious because he is near, he is in control, and I am safe.
Obviously this is not going to cure my anxiety. I am still going to get anxious. I am still going to experience panic. But when I do, I can close my eyes and picture the Lord standing next to me and I will feel safer.
I just wanted to share this little bit of encouragement with you all today. With anxiety comes overwhelming fear, but with God comes overwhelming peace. All we have to do is call out to him in faith. ♡
Leave a comment if you were encouraged!